Endometriosis & PCOS Self Discovery
November 3rd, 2016
I got the Depo shot again today, first thing my doctor said to me was I'm a couple weeks late and that the pain is going to come back again that people with my condition need to stay on the shot. He also mentioned how the pill failed before and this is the best thing for me.. I explained how I was already in tons of pain over it and the cyst rapturing and everything due to my chronic illnesses..
I've been doing a video project in my one class, visual thinking, based off my endometriosis and pcos. During this project I video taped different scenes as well as came up with my own definitions to voice over. I wanted my viewers to feel my emotion and pain that i'm feeling for a better understanding and awareness of my conditions. That a person can be in my shoes as they get personal with me. It took a lot for me to get this out there, as I shed a tear every time I watch this and I hope you can get a better understanding of people with chronic illnesses.
Also my imovie crashed and my adobe premiere wouldn't load so I ended up with a free app called video pad that saved my ass for this project. I wasn't familiar with the program and I just wung it and ended up with this video in the end.
Also would like to mention this video project has been a very big deal to me since it is a major part of my life that I am still dealing with. When I got the news in middle school and am still learning to deal and get better. It is especially good for people to understand me as they get closer to me as it may effect them as well as it effects me. It reveals the things I can't express enough, the things that people are afraid to ask or don't understand. The pain and the struggles of chronic illnesses. This project was a way for me to express this with my thoughts and feelings that have effected me.
Also the beginning of my video takes place with my fx makeup showing me bruised up to show pain.
Just the products I used for this project.
My video project.
Also some of the definitions used in the video, the gists, because during the process I added on more as I was speaking.
Jackies Dictionary to her life with Endometriosis & PCOS
Endometriosis: A disorder in which tissue that normally lines the uterus grows outside the uterus.
My Definition: Feels like my insides are going to explode, you can’t walk, you can’t eat, you are literally enable, life of bed rest. Pain is so bad, you can’t do anything. And because of it you miss school or work during that time. Also you may never be able to have children in your life.
Pcos Polycystic Ovary Syndrome: A hormonal disorder causing enlarged ovaries with small cysts on the outer edges.
My Definition: Begins off thinking it could be just a stomach bug, until you feel an explosion inside you due to a toxic fluid from a cyst exploding. You lay there curling up in a ball and crying, thinking your dying because of how horrid the pain is.
Cramps:Pain in muscles
My definition- An evil pain that causes you to lay in bed all day and want chocolate and people to cater to you but you still are dying from the pain.
Menopause:A natural decline in reproductive hormones when a woman reaches her 40s or 50s.
My definition- You find out you are only 18 with menopause due to the depo shot you’re taking to help your endometriosis. You can’t sleep at night and have hot flashes and find yourself trying to take naps during the day. You stay up all night. Have mood swings all day. You literally become a monster and cry at almost anything but then smile the next second. Literally people think you have become bipolar.
Depression: A brain disorder characterized by persistently depressed mood or loss of interest in activities, causing significant impairment in daily life.
My definition-The moment you bursts into tears because no one realizes how unhappy you are and you start to go unnoticed in hopes people but they don’t. You stop going to school and skip shifts at work, if you show up to school it is only for half a day. You can never get out of bed you loose motivation to do anything. You stop talking to your friends and going out. You begin to feel empty and everything hurts.
Anxiety:A mental health disorder characterized by feelings of worry, anxiety, or fear that are strong enough to interfere with one's daily activities
My definition- You start to over think everything, your life, your family, your friends, school, you think you aren’t good enough, You begin to get paranoid and think no one cares about you and your existence and everything starts to bother you so you lock yourself in your room.
Stress: Stress is your body's way of responding to any kind of demand or threat. When you feel threatened, your nervous system responds by releasing a flood of stress hormones, including adrenaline and cortisol, which rouse the body for emergency action.
My Definition- You wait till the last minute to do everything, everything piles up on you and you realize you don’t have enough time to finish your work and you debate on taking a 0 or a late grade.
Hot Flashes: a sudden feeling of feverish heat, typically as a symptom of menopause.
My Definition- You go to sleep all cold but you know you need the fan on and that blankets can come off. You wake up in the middle of the night drenched in sweat and chugging a water bottle and that you some how ended up in Afghanistan.
Weight Loss: in the context of medicine, health, or physical fitness, refers to a reduction of the total body mass, due to a mean loss of fluid, body fat or adipose tissue and/or lean mass, namely bone mineral deposits, muscle, tendon, and other connective tissue.
My definition- You’re told you are finally going to gain some weight due to the depo shot since you’ve always been on the underweight side. But then you realize you’re dropping weight due to the shot. Your appetite gets smaller, and you’re down to eating one meal a day. Then you end up loosing 10 pounds in less than a month.
Depo Shot:The Birth Control Shot is an injection of the hormone, progesterone. It's trade name is Depo-Provera and it is sometimes referred to as "Depot". In the United States, a doctor's prescription is required to get a Depo-Provera Shot and it must be administered by a health professional.
My definition- Known as the evil birth control choice, given to patients with endometriosis. Causing an 18 year old to go through menopause, mood swings, hot flashes, panic attacks, break downs, everything that is not normal to this girl.
Mood swings: an abrupt and apparently unaccountable change of mood.
My definition- Where one minute you’re happy and the next minute you’re crying over everything and breaking things and you have no idea why. That the slightest thing can get under your skin. And everyone blames it on your raging hormones.
Motivation: the general desire or willingness of someone to do something.
My definition- If I had motivation I would of been going to class my senior year and not laying in bed all day making excuses not to do any work or show up.
I hope you enjoy my video, my project, a little self discovery. Thank you.
Love always,
Jackie Kensey XX
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